I was sad today but I didn’t feel like telling anyone. Why you ask? No, no, it’s not because I don’t have friends. I do. People love me. They do. But some days you are a different kind of sad. On those days, you wish you could tell someone you are sad without getting an inspirational speech in response, or advice on how to not be sad, or pity. Today was one of those days.
People say they are good listeners. But most of the times people listen so they can talk once you have finished talking. There are all kinds of listeners, sympathetic listeners (the ones who do tsk, tsk while listening to your sob story), attentive listeners (the ones who pay more attention to your words than they ever paid to the teacher when she was delivering a lecture), bored listeners (the ones who can’t wait for you to shut up) etc etc.
But at the end of your talk, a good listener starts talking. As if their words are going to cure your sorrows. What if when I tell you I am sad, you don’t say anything and decide to be sad with me? Just stay silent and share my sadness. Can you do that?
I know it’s the New Year’s Eve but I am not going to tell you my resolutions for the next year. Because there aren’t any. One way I am dealing with life is by just planning for the next day or just planning for the next hour. If I can do tomorrow what I planned today then I will make my next plan. Sometimes you make too many plans and when the first one gets ruined, you get this negative feeling that maybe all your plans are doomed to fail.
So I am going to take one step at a time. One plan. And then I will see where it goes from there.
Nonfunctioning Adult 